January 10, 2018

Realizations In The New Year

So, it's a little over a week into the new year and I've just come to the realization that I spent almost the entirety of 2017 focusing on other people. And that in doing so, I haven't truly taken time to take care of myself in almost a year. Which, as you can probably guess, has been a detriment on myself as a whole.

For months I've been trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me and how to express it. And I just couldn't for whatever reason, which is so frustrating to me because of how normally articulate and verbal I am.

It hasn't been until this past week that I could truly express how I've been feeling for months.

Last Friday, the day after the East Coast was hit with that "bomb cyclone" or whatever other made up fucking name people are using for it, I was leaving to go to work and I ended up slipping outside of my building and hurting my shoulder. Instead of staying home and taking care of myself I went to work, and while at work I ended up having to deal with some complete and utter bullshit from Administration. So by the time I got home I was just mentally and psychically exhausted. Like I couldn't even take my snow boots off, Justin had to do it for me. And as he was helping me, I just looked at him and said "I've felt like a wounded animal backed into a corner all day..."

Then this past Sunday I had to deal with an ongoing issue I've been having with an individual. And in dealing with the person and the issue, I ended up betraying myself for the greater good. Which caused me to have the most visceral reaction (Tears, shaking. You would have thought someone died, and Justin did).

Because of the intensity of the reaction I had, I just couldn't pull myself together all day. And at one point while Justin and I were out grocery shopping, I ended up snapping at him (Which he did not deserve) and barking that I've spent almost a year taking care and doing things for others and neglecting myself.

In that moment I finally realized what was wrong. And it was such a simple, stupid thing that I would have recognized in anyone else right away.

Since having my realization I've decided that I need to take care of myself in order to be any good to anyone else that I might need to take care of also. Because I know I'm never going to stop taking care and helping the people that I love.

Thus, 2018 is going to be about taking care of myself first and foremost so that I can be the best version of myself for me and everyone else that I care about.

What does this mean for my blog? I'm actually going to try to be around more because blogging helps me focus and channel my energy.

So, thank you for sticking with me and supporting me year after year. You have no idea how much I appreciate all of you.

December 17, 2017

Christmas Wishlist

Since Christmas Eve is only a week away I thought that I'd throw together a last minute Christmas wishlist in case anyone wanted to know what I wanted for Christmas...
Is there anything you're wishing for? Lemme know what you're asking for this holiday season!

December 3, 2017

Sunday Steal

1. Do You Prefer Hardcover, Paperback Or Kindle... And Why?  
In terms of just reading a book, I don't care as long as it's a physical book (I hate e-readers, yet I'm okay with audio books only because of my commute). But if I'm purchasing a book, which I don't do often, I prefer it to be a hardcover if possible.

2. If I Were To Own A Book Shop I Would Call It...  
Hmm... You'd think that as a librarian I'd have a dream name for a book shop but I don't. If I did someday own a book shop it would have to have the word 'librarian' in it for sure. Maybe The Librarian's Book Den or something like that...

3. My Favorite Quote From A Book (Mention The Title) Is... 
"Hysteria is impossible without an audience. Panicking by yourself is the same as laughing alone in an empty room. You feel really silly."
"All God does is watch us and kill us when we get boring. We must never, ever be boring."
4. The Author (Alive Or Dead) I Would Love To Have Lunch With Would Be...  
Hmm... I would be down for a nice lunch with Edgar Allen Poe, Stephen King and Chuck Palahniuk.

5. If I Was Going To A Deserted Island And Could Only Bring One Book, Except For The SAS Survival Guide, It Would Be...  
Thankfully I have a pretty active imagination, so I could probably just bring something like "14,000 Things To Be Happy About" by Barbara Ann Kipfer or something like that with lists.

6. I Would Love Someone To Invent A Bookish Gadget That...  
I don't need bookish gadgets. Just give me a normal ass book.

7. The Smell Of An Old Book Reminds Me Of... 
Work... I'm a librarian... What else did you expect my answer to be.

Oh, and FYI the glue used on new books smells like baby vomit. True story.

8. If I Could Be The Lead Character In A Book (Mention The Title), It Would Be...
Hmm.. I don't have a specific title that I'd want to be the main character in but probably some travel adventure mystical comedy type book, because that is basically my life anyways.

9. The Most Overrated Book Of All Time Is...
This is a very subjective question... That being said I fucking hate "The Catcher in the Rye" by J.D. Salinger, as well as "Lord of the Flies" by William Golding.

10. I Hate It When A Book...
Sucks... Is damaged...

November 30, 2017

Movie Trailer | The Shape Of Water

As you may or may not know, Justin and I are huge fans of anything with Guillermo del Toro's name attached to it. So it goes without saying that we are super excited for his newest offering The Shape of Water (2017) which is coming out tomorrow in New York City.

From master story teller, Guillermo del Toro, comes THE SHAPE OF WATER - an  other - worldly fairy tale, set  against the backdrop of Cold War era America circa 196 2 . In the  hidden high - security government laboratory where she works, lonely Elisa (Sally Hawkins) is  trapped in a life of isolation. Elisa’s life is changed forever when she and co - worker Zelda  (Octa via Spencer) discover a secret classified experiment. Rounding out the cast are Michael  Shannon, Richard Jenkins,  Doug Jones and  Michael Stuhlbarg. 

Fox Searchlight Pictures presents, in association with TSG Entertainment, a  Double Dare You Production,  THE SHAPE OF WATER directed by Guillermo del Toro from a  screenplay by  d el Toro  & Vanessa Taylor with story by  Guillermo  del Toro .  The producers are  Gu illermo  d el Toro , p.g.a. and J. Miles Dale , p.g.a. .   The filmmaking crew includes director of  photography Dan Laustsen, DFF, production designer Paul  Denham  Austerberry, film editor Sidney  Wolinsky, ACE, associate producer Daniel Kraus, visual effects supe rvisor Dennis Berardi, music by  Alexandre Desplat, costume designer Luis Sequeira and casting by Robin D. Cook, CSA
For those of you that may not have seen the trailer, here it is...

Genre:Adventure, Drama, Fantasy
Cast: Sally Hawkins, Michael Shannon, Richard Jenkins, Doug Jones, Michael Stuhlbarg and Octavia Spencer
Directed by: Guillermo del Toro
Writer: Guillermo del Toro
Screenplay by: Guillermo del Toro & Vanessa Taylor 
Produced by: Guillermo del Toro & J. Miles Dale
Rated: R
Release Date: December 8, 2017

So is anyone else excited for this? Do you love Guillermo del Toro as much as Justin and I do? If so, lemme know! And if you do love del Toro I totally need to know what you're favorite movie he is attached to is.

“Water takes the shape of whatever is holding it at the time and although water can be so gentle, it's also  the most powerful and malleable force in the universe. That's also love, isn't it?  It doesn’t matter what shape we put love into, it becomes that, whether it’s man, woman or creature.”
- Guillermo del Toro on The Shape of Water

For those of you interested, here is an interview with Guillermo del Toro in Spanish...

December Photo-A-Day

Here is the photo-a-day list Fat Mum Slim made for December 2017...
How To Take Part In December Photo-A-Day:     

  • Using the list as inspiration, take a photo each day.     
  • Share it on Instagram or Twitter using the hashtags #FMSphotoaday and #FMSPAD. You can also share on your blog or on Facebook by joining her group.     
  • Check out other people's photos and like them or comment on them.
  • Each day a Fab Four is picked from the photos shared on Instagram for the challenge. It’s four photos that have captured their attention from each prompt. Check the feed @littlemomentsapp to see the photos.

Still Remember Me?

Back in September I told you all I was going to buck the fuck up and get my shit back together, well that obviously didn't happen because my life continued to be a ball of chaos for all of the reasons I listed in that post and then I got super sick. Like, I got sick the day after my sister's wedding (October 1st to be exact) and I'm still not feeling great almost two months later. But that all being said, I'm determined to actually buck the fuck up this time and start blogging regularly no matter what. Again, thank you for baring with me as I try to get back on track. I really appreciate every one of you and all of the support you've shown me over the years.

September 12, 2017

Remember Me?

Back in May I mentioned that my life had been an utter ball of chaos, and well, it didn't stop being a ball of chaos. The chaos just snowballed and that's why I haven't been around much. Between traveling, Justin's grandmother passing away, Justin's grandfather moving, my Department Head having cancer and going through chemo, being short staffed at work, losing all of my photos off Photobucket, wedding stuff, etc. I've been stretched pretty thin.

That being said, I'm trying to buck the fuck up (Which is something I tell anyone who complains too much to me about their life problems) and get my shit together. So thank you for baring with me as I try to get back on track. I really appreciate every one of you and all of the support you've shown me over the years.

August 15, 2017

Kristina's Bridal Shower...

As you may or may not know, my younger sister is getting married next month and I am her matron of honor. And because of this privilege she bestowed upon me, it was my job to throw her the bridal shower of her dreams
. Thanks to the financial backing of our mother and her future mother-in-law I was able to pull off a not too shabby shindig, which we threw in the party room of a restaurant here on Long Island for her and her guests to enjoy.
As you can kinda tell, it was your typical wine themed bridal shower with food, drinks, games, silly hats, etc. Plus a beautiful "I Love Lucy" (1951-1957) themed cake that I bought as a present for my Lucille Ball loving sister (FYI - She started to cry when she saw it, I'm really good at making her cry in both good and bad ways).

I don't know what the guests would say but I think I threw one nice ass bridal shower for my sister. And I know that at least she agrees because she called me when she got home and was on the phone with me for almost twenty minutes telling me how much she loved it. Which made me so happy because I put a lot of thought and effort into it for her.

July 31, 2017

Lisa's Baby Shower...

For those of you that may or may not know, my cousin Lisa is pregnant. So this past weekend my sister, mother and I attended her baby shower which was thrown for her by her sister-in-law.

As you can see from the pictures below it was your typical baby shower with food, games, present opening, photo booth props and lots of pink because she is having a girl (Whose name she revealed to us at the end of the party). 
Despite me not being big into things like this (I'm not a fan of showers of any sort and I had Lisa's baby shower this past weekend and I'm throwing my sister a bridal shower this upcoming weekend) I had a really nice time but most importantly, Lisa loved it. So it was a good day.

How do you feel about showers of any sort? Love them? Hate them? Lemme know.